I’ve been staring at the “Write Post” page for days now, I can never find it in myself to write, even if I’ve got so much to tell. I’ve been in one of my famous slumps, where words don’t come too easy. In fact, I’m rambling now to fool myself into thinking I’ve written something substantial already. And now, I’m thinking “Might as well go on…” Wow, I know myself pretty well!
No birthday post from me! That’s how much I suck as a blogger right now. So anyway let me see what I can come up with now.
Must have been five or six in this picture, I really don’t want to compute given my confusing school-year history (some of you know what I mean). How time flies.
October 4 was actually a great day for me, I got a lot more greetings than I expected to get. Really. People I didn’t think would bother to greet actually did, even a friend I haven’t seen in at least 6 years! I loved it because I wouldn’t have thought any differently of them if they didn’t, but since they did I’m deeply thankful. If you’re one of those people who greeted me, and for those who gave gifts, thank you so much. You’re all part of the reasons I love my life. :]
As mentioned in my predictably vague October 11 post, had a select few friends over, and it was a blast. They say that when you’re with close friends, you tend to revert to the person you were when you first met them. Well, I might not really like who I was in general back then, but I absolutely love who I am when I’m with them. Thanks for being there guys, and thanks to Ali for bringing the Wii again haha!
View from the office building in HK, back when I was there mostly for fun.
Work-wise, things have been different. Interesting, challenging, and exciting — but different. Stress and anxiety levels are at record levels with the current status of our project, and I was telling someone over chat that we must have been a little masochistic! Haha. Well, even if by definition work’s been tough, I wouldn’t have it any other way (Er, sans the incompetence of certain *cough* devs). Because at the end of the day, after giving ourselves a pat on the back for delivering despite seemingly unreasonable deadlines, I feel good. I feel like it’s not just a job to me. And it has its perks.
In the past week, we’ve been pulling overtimes like we actually lived in the office, but man did things end up going great. Like our project manager said, no matter happens from this point on, it’s already a success. The fact that we even pulled it off given the unbelievable circumstances, that makes it a success for the team.
And things are looking so much better for the future. I’m so happy to be in this project. Which brings me to my next point, as I do my (late) obligatory birthday pondering.
This is something I often forget. Something that I lose sight of often enough to make me more worried than I should be, make me let my ego get in the way, turn me into a very angry person. When I look back every year, I come to the same undeniable conclusion, one that I pray I forget less and less — God has blessed me with so much, and words cannot contain my joy and gratitude. I’m sure my long-time friends, if they tried to, will remember me as a lonely girl who didn’t really care about anything enough for her life to mean anything to her. Call it a phase, call it temporary confusion, but I know how bad it was for me then despite appearances. When I think about how far I’ve gone, and how rich I am in good friends, a loving family, a job I love, and a future full of God’s promises for me…
I am overwhelmed. And in every single thing I do, in every success and failure now and forever, I will praise and thank my God — who has sustained and blessed me for 22 years. Here’s to the year ahead! :]
Abby is 22 years old, currently living with her folks and her dog in Metro East. She does coordination, marketing and community management for a new IP-based online game. She is a loving daughter, sister, friend, an artist and a writer, a dork, a crazy person, contradiction, and so on and so on. This blog is where she drowns out all the noise. 
